Sen de kendi kendine konusanlardan misin? / Are you also talking by yourself?

Bir tek ben mi kendi kendime konusuyorum acaba?

Eskiden beri az da olsa kendi kendime konusma halim var. Ders calisirken, yemek yaparken, alisveris yaparken ya da bir yerlere giderken; yani ozetle icimden dusunduklerim bir sure sonra sesi dusunme halini halini aliyor. Bu durumdan fazla yakindigim soylenemez, sadece etrafimdan gecenler beni duyduklarinda bazen komik durumlar olusabiliyor! Genelde de arkamdan gelenleri farketmedigim de! Bazen utaniyorum bazen ise sadece gulup geciyorum.

Uzun suredir yurtdisinda yasadigim icin artik dusuncelerimi de birkac dilde ya da ortaya karisik olarak disa vurmaya basladim. Sanirim beynim biraz yalama oldu :)) Tabi bu durumda beni duyanlar kesin bu deli diye dusunuyorlardir! Markette yemek dusunurken turkce konustugumda etrafimdakilerin ve ozellikle yasli teyzelerin yuzlerini gormeniz gerek! 

Hazir yabanci dil konusunu acmisken deginmeden edemeyecegim bir konu da sinirlendiginde kendi dilinde istedigin kadar soylenebilme rahatligi! Ozellikle yolda giderken, ister toplu tasima ister duz taban; illa her gun bam telinize basacak birileri cikiyor! Roma'nin da trafikte Istanbul'dan bir farki yok:

Misal yaya gecindinden gecerken temkinli olmakta fayda var; oyle ara yol zaten rahat geciyim dersen yandin! Adamlar ve ozellikle yasli teyzeler bildigin otobanda gider gibi geciveriyorlar valla! Kac kere ben gecerken ayak ucumdan milim farkla geciverdiler! Neyse lafi fazla uzatmayayim; benim de bu densizlere turkce bayagi bi giydirmisligim var! ( dogal olarak sinir halinde ilk anadiliniz cikiyor )

Am i the only one that is speaking to herself?

I have a habit of talking by myself time to time for a long of time. While studying, cooking, shopping or going to somewhere; so briefly after sometime of thinking from inside it turns out to start talking by myself. I can't say that i'm complaining about this situation but sometimes i have awkward/funny moments when someone passes me on the street. Especially when i dont realize that there's someone coming right behind me! When that's the case i sometimes feel ashamed, sometimes just laugh about it.

As a result that i have been living abroad, i start to express my feelings with different languages or just make a mix of them. I think my brain has started to boil :)) I'm pretty sure they think that i'm crazy when they hear this mix! Ah also you should see the people around me,especially the old people's faces, in the supermarket when i speak/think turkish about what to cook!

So that i opened the foreign language subject, i becomes inevitable to talk about the relief of speaking my mother language when i get pissed off! Especially when you're going to somewhere, with transportation or by walking, there's always(not skipping a day) someone that gets you on edge! Unfortunately there's no difference between Rome and Istanbul when the traffic is the case:

For instance, you should be very careful when you pass the pedestrian line! Men and especially grandmas drive like they are on the high way!! How many times they passed 1cm away fromw my feet while i was crossing the pedestrian line! Without more ado, i can say that i had many moments of cursing in turkish to these "beings"! ( and of course when you get angry , it comes out first your mother language)